Generally...

I am always grateful that I lived my life comfortably.
I didnt had the very best or even just the best, but at least I lead a decent one.

I am,at this point of life, very worried at the state that I am.
Fyn could be right with certain aspects but she's the optimist and I'm the realist.
I had to think ahead of so many things that they are constantly wearing me down.

If I were to survive on my own, less the home I'm provided with, I guess I'm pretty safe still.
But I'm holding at the stage whereby I cant bring in much extra to support this house and what makes you think that my brother is back and the load will be off me?

With his grand return, I think the load's heavier.
I wondered when will I be able or will I be able to collect the $300 from him that he loaned...yesterday.

And I'm more afraid that if he's gone again, I would have more dust to sweep.

That's one.

Second is my poor father.
Let's just put it as I made a point to pray for good health and luck for him every morning.
I'm truely worried..really.

So how can I even think of my own future so much at my own likings and will with things like that loading on me?
I don't dare..you know...I dont dare!

Anyway it's just a general entry.
Too much for me to blah if I go on and on.

And luckily, I'm tired as well.

Bonnuit.